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Teddy's Three Month Update.

Friday, 18 August 2017
    
Baby Three Month Update


I can't believe I have a three month old! I honestly can't get over how quickly time goes when you have a baby. I am so glad I take pictures everyday because blink, and you miss something. I always find myself spending five or ten minutes every night looking back through all his pictures and forgetting he was ever as small as he was, when he was born.

I feel like Teddy has grown so much over the past four weeks. He enjoys babbling to himself and telling us little stories, especially in a morning! He loves having little conversations with us where we chat back-and-forth. He is such a morning person, always wakes up with a smile. He has finally started lifting his head up during tummy time, not for as long as he does when being held, but he doesn't hate it as much as he used to. When we hold him he can hold his neck up so well and even the Health Visitor commented on how strong and sturdy he is, holding his head up. He grasps his dangly toys on his play gym, and especially enjoys any toys that are musical.



I am still exclusively breastfeeding although he has had one bottle over the past four weeks, because I went out for the first time WITHOUT him. I know shock horror, I actually met up with my best friend for dinner at Gourmet Burger Kitchen, YUM, and actually managed to eat with both hands and whilst it was hot! Meals like that are few and far between with a baby. He had a Daddy, Teddy day where they went out for coffee and some dinner. He was extremely well behaved and took his bottle like a trooper, which I was a little worried about as he hasn't had a bottle in about 4 weeks so I thought he might kick off. It would appear that as long as he is getting Mummy's milk, he isn't bothered who it comes from! I am still expressing once a day using my Medela Swing Electric Breast Pump , which I love by the way and can't recommend enough! I store the milk until I've collected around 6oz and then put it into my Lansinoh Breastmilk Storage Bags , and then pop them in the freezer. I am still absolutely loving breastfeeding and feel really lucky that I am still able to do it with ease. Don't get me wrong, waking up bog-eyed in the middle of the night is hard work, but when he gives me a sleepy little smile when i'm latching him on, I soon forgive him.

Since our last update we have taken Teddy swimming twice and he loved it. We go to a leisure centre a couple of towns over, as the small pool is really heated, so perfect for babies. They have a parent and toddler session everyday Monday-Friday, so we are hoping to take him a lot more. We have also booked our first family holiday abroad, next July, YAY. We are going to Halkidiki, the Greek island, for 11 nights and i'm so excited. Don't get me wrong, I know it is going to be a whole other experience with a 15 month in tow, but I can't wait to travel with him and experience new places as a family.
He has also had his twelve week jabs, but he was absolutely fine, cried for 0.5 seconds and that was it! The first lot of jabs gave him a slight temperature but with the help of some calpol that soon eased off.

Baby Bath Time

Teddy's Third Month

Feeding:

Still exclusively breastfeeding! We got him weighed on the day he turned three months old and he is currently 13lb 11oz, staying in the 50th percentile. Woohoo!

Sleeping:

He now sleeps 10-3/3:30 in his crib, feeds for around half an hour and then goes back down until 5:30, where he then comes in bed with us until around 8ish. I have done a blog post on how we finally cracked putting him down in his crib instead of co-sleeping all night long.

Teddy Loves:

Sucking his thumb! He has just discovered that his thumbs do actually belong to him and he has used them to settle a couple of times. 

Teddy Hates:

Getting dressed after his bath! I'm not exaggerating when I say he loves being naked. He loves his bath, enjoys some baby massage and then as soon as you start getting him dressed, next door must think we're torturing him! He'll scream bloody murder until he's fully dressed and on the boob, then you won't hear a peep. 

When the Health Visitor came last week she mentioned weaning and how we are planning on introducing him to foods! I can't believe we will soon have to start thinking about that, we won't be introducing them until six months but i'm sure it'll be here before we know it! We are planning on doing Baby Led Weaning so if you have any advice or book recommendations, that would be brilliant!



My Daily Routine With A Three Month Old.

Wednesday, 16 August 2017
   
my daily routine with a three month old.

When you are pregnant, people tell you that you won't ever have a minute to yourself and your whole day will revolve around your baby. Naively I thought, HOW?! They are tiny and don't they sleep all the time? Little did I know that when they say babies sleep all the time, it means ON YOU, attached to either your boob or your lap! I have to save my two minute showers for when Aaron is home, I have to read my books during the night feed on my kindle and you have to learn to eat with one hand at the speed of a rabid dog.

Teddy is now thirteen weeks old and I feel like, finally, we have found our feet and got ourselves into the swing of things. Our day-to-day life depends on whether we have any plans or not & whether Aaron is off work. I thought we would share our daily routine if we are just having a Mummy & Teddy day. We don't have a strict routine with Teddy and I don't believe you should force your baby into one, if it doesn't happen naturally! Babies know exactly what they want and when so just roll with it!

We usually wake up around 8/8:30a.m *woohoo*, that is after being up two/three times in the night, so we deserve a little lie in. We have a snuggle & feed in bed and a little chat about what we'll be doing that day, or reading a book. I then put him on his changing mat and strip him right down, giving him 10 minutes of nappy free time. My kid loves being bollock naked! I use this time to get myself dressed and ready, by dressed I mean in clean comfy clothes! I have ten minutes people, time is of the essence.

I then usually give Teddy a quick wipe over and get him dressed for the day, usually in a lovely, snuggly baby grow, before we head downstairs. When we get downstairs I will usually put him in his rocker and put children's tv on, I know bad mum alert but it's the only chance I get to eat my breakfast and give the kitchen & living room a quick clean. Needs must and all that. We'll then usually have some time on his play mat, playing with his toys or having tummy time. He actually hates tummy time when we do it on the floor, he prefers to do it when we are holding him, or he is lay on us!

   

Around 11:30/12 he is ready for another feed and a nap! It is anyone's guess how long the nap will last though, it depends what mood he is in. It can last anywhere from 15 minutes to an hour. I usually spend this time trying to grab some quick snacks and a drink before he wakes up.

Once he is awake and we've changed his bum, we will sometimes head out for a walk to meet Aaron after work, who usually finishes work around 2o'clock. It's so important to get out and get some fresh air! In the first few weeks I never left the house alone because I was absolutely terrified that something would go wrong. Almost 13 weeks in and I've finally got the hang of it, it still takes about an hour to actually leave the house, but we manage to get out eventually!

Once we are all home, Aaron will usually entertain Teddy whilst I try and write some blog posts or have a shower before we all snuggle up and watch TV or play with Teddy on his mat. After our tea, which is more often than not eaten one handed, passing him between us trying to eat as quickly as we can, we will head upstairs ready to give Teddy his bath. This usually happens at 8pm as he has his last feed at 9pm, ready for bed. We like to both go upstairs and give him a bath before enjoying some baby massage. Teddy absolutely LOVES bath time, he is such a water baby. Again, I think it's because he loves being naked! Such a lad...

   

We get into bed for 9 at the latest, where Teddy has his last feed and I will either read on my kindle or catch up on some blogs & youtube videos. 9 times out of 10 he is usually out for the count at 10pm and i'll put him into his crib where he'll sleep soundly for around 4/5 hour, before waking for his next feed.

When I am in bed ready to go to sleep and I am looking back on the day, I feel like I've hardly done anything and worry that i'm not doing enough for Teddy. The feeling of mum guilt is so real and some days it can really overwhelm me.

I remember the days leading up to when Aaron had to go back to work after his paternity and I felt physically sick. I felt like I wouldn't be able to cope on my own and counted down the hours until Aaron came home. Luckily after 4 or 5 weeks, that feeling passed and it was nice to spend time just me & Teddy. Whether it was chilling at home, or going out for the day shopping. As much as I struggled in the first few weeks, I am already dreading the day when I have to go back to work and leave Teddy with somebody else. I am trying to make the most of everyday as you'll never get this time back again. Time is so precious with your baby, I feel like it was only two minutes ago that he was born and now he's three months old!


Lessons I Have Learnt Since Becoming A Mummy | Guest Blogger Series | Me, Him, The Dog & A Baby.

Monday, 14 August 2017
  

lessons I have learnt since becoming a mummy


   I’m Lyndsey, I’m 31 and I live in Middle of Nowhere, Norfolk! I live with my husband John and daughter Erin. John works for our local council where he has been for the past 16 years and I have just gone self-employed!
From being pregnant to Erin's birth and then to being a parent, this is not what I imaged it to be at all! I didn't enjoy pregnancy whatsoever and Erin's arrival was not at all what I expected. I ended up being induced and she was born early at 36+4 and on New Year's Day! There is so much that I have learned since becoming a parent, here are 5 of them!

  


Things I Have Learnt Since Becoming A Mummy


Breastfeeding isn't everything- Erin's birth was extremely traumatic. I was induced and ended up with an emergency section which resulted in Erin getting stuck. After putting me back together I got sepsis and e-coli. Recovery was long and I was in hospital for 2 weeks because I had to have surgery again after 7 days.

Being as ill as I was, breastfeeding didn't go to plan. I tried and tried for days and got myself so stressed and upset because I couldn't do it. I felt like a failure. My husband was so supportive and encouraged me to swap to bottle feeding to help us all. I learned it's okay not to breastfeed, for whatever reason.

It's okay to have questions-
For some reason, I sort of felt like as soon as Erin was born I was supposed to know what to do about everything. I must have spent so long on Google for so many different things.

Accidents happen- I dropped Erin was she was only a few weeks old. It was only from a short height after getting out of the bath but I was still recovering from surgery and I slipped. Erin was totally fine and got over it really quickly.

At the beginning of the year Erin tripped in the living room and cut her head open on the fireplace. I felt so much guilt because I was with her when it happened. We had to go in an ambulance and have her head glued together. I was so much more upset than she was!

The thing is, you can't wrap your children in cotton wool. I've come to terms with the fact that Erin will get bumps and bruises and I can't stop that!

Parenting is not natural- I don't think parenting has ever really felt completely natural to me. You know when you tell people you're pregnant and they give you the 'Oh, you'll be a natural' reply? Well, I think they all lie.

Being a non parent is not even close to being the same as being a parent. Your whole life changes and you have to think about everything differently. What part of that is natural?

My child is awesome-
Okay, so I know everyone will say this about their children and it is, of course, true! I guess with this I have learned to let emotions in that I wasn't prepared for. Before I became a parent I wasn't prepared to feel the joy, love and be as proud of my girl as I am. I have learned to see how amazing the little things are, like her learning how to howl at the sky like a wolf. I have learned that in my eyes, everything Erin does is amazing and I am so proud of every single thing she does.

  


Is Being A Parent Different Than How You Imagined?

Since becoming a parent, my whole life has changed and that's exactly how it should be. However, parenting has not been an easy transition for me. Nothing has ever really felt natural for me and I struggled with this. I struggled so much that, along with other reasons, I suffer from PND. Erin and I have had a rough journey together so far but I actually wouldn't change that for the world. I think that the things I have learned so far, and the experiences we have had, have made me who I am today. I am stronger because of all of this now.

I have learned so much in 19 months and I will only continue to learn more.

You can find Lyndsey Here-

How We Stopped Co-Sleeping | Purflo Breathable Nest.

Friday, 11 August 2017
    
Purflo Breathable Nest


Before Teddy arrived I naively thought that babies slept wherever they were put. Moses baskets, cots, cribs..I just presumed that with the whole 'all babies do is sleep' statement, that meant that they would sleep anywhere. Oh how wrong was I! From not sleeping at all unless in my arms, to co-sleeping next to me, to FINALLY settling in his crib. All thanks to the Purflo Breathable Nest.

The two nights we spent in the hospital, he slept happily in his little rocking crib they provide, swaddled up nice & cosy. Easy, I thought, when we get home he'll sleep in his moses basket downstairs and his crib upstairs, in our room. Silly Mummy. I tried every night for two weeks to get him to sleep in his crib or moses basket at night and he was just not having it. He would fall asleep on me after feeding, but as soon as we tried putting him down he would throw himself awake and scream bloody murder. He fed & cried constantly until around 4 or 5 in the morning, where he would pass out in our bed for a few hours. We walked around the house, swaddled him, played white noise.. you name it, we tried it. Some nights I would go downstairs with him and watch telly in the dark whilst trying not to nod off, just so at least Aaron could get some sleep. I didn't see the point in us both being exhausted and since I was (and still am) exclusively breastfeeding it was pretty much all down to me.

  



We ended up doing the one thing I never thought I would, and that is co-sleeping. It was literally the only way any of us could get any sleep. It worked an absolute dream! I could lie us both down and feed him whilst we slept. I know they don't recommend co-sleeping, but I honestly believe if you make sure you do it as safely as possible, then it is whatever works best for you and baby. Teddy was perfectly happy and so was I. However I knew I couldn't carry on forever and was looking for any solutions I could find to get him to sleep in his crib! I was tempted to buy the sleepyhead that everyone raves about but after reading some reviews online and seeing lots of comments about how quickly they outgrow them considering how damn expensive they are, I just couldn't warrant paying all that money for something that would last two minutes. 

I saw someone on Twitter talking about the Purflo Breathable Nest being a cheaper alternative to the Sleepyhead and it instantly caught my attention. I headed to google and spotted it available on Superdrug for £49.99 and thought it was a bargain compared to the Sleepyhead so instantly picked it up. It is also available at Mothercare & on Amazon, although Superdrug is the cheapest place I have found it so far. The Purflo is designed to have Amicor Pure filling it its bumper as it is naturally breathable and also anti-fungal, anti-bacterial and reduces the risk of dust mites, all of which are known to aggravate infant allergies, such as childhood asthma and eczema.

I didn't want to do too much too quick at night time so I started by placing him in his nest, inside his crib for 5-10 minutes during the day whilst I was getting ready, brushing my teeth ect and he seemed really happy! One night he fell asleep downstairs (which rarely happens just before bedtime) so we placed him sleeping, in his crib with his nest and he slept for an hour! It may not sound like a lot, but it was definite progress. Baby steps people.

The next night he had his usual big night-time feed 9 until 10, and I placed him in his crib asleep & he lasted three hours before waking up for his first feed! I could have cried I was so happy. Once he had his feed, he wouldn't go back in his crib so I put him in bed with us, still feeling like we had accomplished something by him doing that first stretch in his nest. The next night we put him in again after his feed and he went from 10pm until 3:30! I kept waking up making sure he was still breathing! After his feed, I waited half an hour to make sure he was in a deep sleep and put him back in his crib where slept until 6am. It's been that way ever since!! He does two stretches in his crib and then comes in bed with us for a couple of hours. We will start putting him back in for the third stretch & persevere so he does even longer in his crib. I feel like we've made some amazing progress though!



I was really worried that we had 'made a rod for our own back', as people kept telling me *eye roll*, but we've managed to crack it ourselves and we still got to enjoy 6 or 7 weeks of co-sleeping, which some nights I do really miss! I'm so glad we opted for the Purflo rather than the Sleepyhead as it's more breathable and I feel a lot happier knowing that if he ever DID roll onto his tummy when he gets bigger, he can still breathe through the small anti-bacterial 3D mesh. I absolutely loved co-sleeping and can see us doing it with our next baby as well, it made those first few weeks so much easier.

I honestly can't recommend these enough! I still think we'd be co-sleeping all night if we hadn't picked up the Purflo. When Teddy is bigger and goes in his own room with his cot-bed, we will transfer his nest into there, so he has something similar and feels really snug and secure. I dread the day he outgrows it and I really hope that the people at Purflo bring out a larger option!

Did you co-sleep with your baby? What do you use to help your baby get a better nights sleep?

My Perfume Collection.

Wednesday, 9 August 2017
   
2017 perfume collection

    

When it comes to perfume, I am a bit of a scent slut. Slutty in the sense that I don't like one particular type of fragrance. I like lots of different ones, depending on my mood. I like fruity, citrus, floral, sweet and slightly harsher perfumes, it really is just a case of what I fancy at the time.

My go to and all time favourite scent is definitely Alien by Mugler! It is such a signature scent that I know instantly as soon as I smell it. It's also the one that I get the most compliments on when I am wearing it. It is definitely a acquired taste I would say as it is quite strong and I know it can give some people (aka my sister) a slight headache. It was the first higher end perfume I was bought and I think that is why it has such a special place in my fragrance collection. It is definitely one that I will purchase again & again. The bottle is also absolutely beautiful and so different to anything else on the scene. When you first apply it you definitely get the smell of the jasmine and it comes through quite strong, but it soon settles down and blends well with the amber. I always feel really kick ass and good about myself when I wear this.

   
mugler alien perfume review

Next paradise perfume review

Next do the most gorgeous perfumes and they are such a bargain. Paradise is a really light, fruity scent that is perfect for summer. How gorgeous is the bottle?! So bright and tropical. This 100ml perfume only cost me a mere £12, and the 200ml bottle is only £20. You'll be able to treat yourself to a beautiful scent without spending a fortune. If you love the Coco Chanel Mademoiselle perfume then Next's Eau Nude is the perfume for you, it is a perfect dupe for a fraction of the price! I really wanted to by the Chanel but just couldn't warrant spending that much on a perfume without selling an organ. So when I researched alternatives, Eau Nude instantly came up as a firm favourite.

Zoella beauty jelly and gelato body mist
Another high end perfume I love is Jimmy Choo Eau De Toilette. I picked this up in Duty Free last year just before my Sister's wedding in Cyprus so it's a really special perfume that reminds me of an amazing holiday with my family. It's the perfect mix of femininity and floral scents with a fruity centre. It smells really fresh and light, the only downfall is that the scent doesn't last long when wearing it and needs to be reapplied if you want it to last throughout the day or night. I've heard some people say that it lasted all day for them, just on one application so it might totally depend on each individual. 

The most recent addition to my collection is the Zoella Beauty Gelat'eau body mist. I have to admit it was the packaging that suckered me into this purchase! The glass bottle and the pastel coloured design was just too much for me to ignore and I instantly picked up a bottle upon release. I have to admit, it's a strange scent that I really don't think will be for everyone. it is ridiculously sweet, which I think is the idea with it being a jelly & gelato based range, but it's actually quite sickly. One thing I do really like (other than the packaging) is the fact that it isn't anything I have ever smelt before and once you get past the initial sickly, sweet notes. It is actually a really nice fragrance that has really good lasting power! It is definitely a summer scent.


Honourable mentions go to Victor&Rolf FlowerBomb Eau De Parfum and Marc Jacobs Daisy & Daisy Dream!

I'd love to know your favourite perfumes! Which fragrance do you always reach for? Do you have any of the ones I've listed above?

Lessons I Have Learnt Since Becoming A Mummy | Guest Blogger Series | Jenni Of Wonderland

Monday, 7 August 2017
  



Hey everyone, I'm Jenni from the blog Jenni Of Wonderland and I'm mummy to Zachary who is now just over 3 months old! We are from Bedfordshire.


10 Things I've Learnt Since Becoming A Mummy

Feeling out of your depth is normal
Your emotions will be all over the place and your hormones will be too and it's completely normal. Remember you've just given birth, it can be the most traumatic moment of your life. I felt like this in the first month of Zach being born. Nevertheless, the feeling of everything is out of my depth will soon pass. And if it doesn't pass then talk to your GP for advice and support.

Embrace your body
After having Zach via c section I felt really self conscious about my body. I instantly hated it, I had that horrible pouchy apron thing going on and i would glare at myself in the mirror every day despising it all. None of my clothes fit me including my maternity wear and I felt fustrated. My hubby had to remind me every time he caught me hating myself in the mirror that I have just had a baby. It took me a good two months, to stop my self hatred and to embrace myself. Your body has done something spectacular, it has looked after your baby for nine months! So my motto for all mums with saggy tums is this; nine months up, nine months down.  

You will be so organised
I never was before Zach. I now love my diary, and I even make lists. Everything is scheduled to make things a lot easier and to get out the house on time or do anything really. But most of all so I don't forget. This helps with getting the baby changing bag ready the night before with bottles for feeding. Seeing what appointments for Zach he has each week. It also helps me with getting up in the morning and getting ready. Way before Zach wakes up. 

Not dressed before Midday?
Don't sweat. Its ok to spend the morning in your pjs with messy hair and smelling of sick and poo. Millions of mummy's are right there with you.

Breastfeeding is hard work
Whether you are able to breastfeed or not and depending on your breastfeeding journey, at some point it was or is bloody hard work. Not only are you learning yourself on how to do it, so is your baby. They can have trouble latching on and once they do latch it an be for hours! Breastfeeding isn't easy, it takes time, effort and dedication and that's if you're lucky to do so anyway. 

Be kind to yourself
Don't put too much pressure on yourself to be the 'perfect' mamma. There isn't such a thing and it took me a while to accept that. There's so much pressure to be a super mum in todays society. The house has to be clean, you have to be well presented and immaculate and make sure baby is this and that before they can even walk etc. Just stop, put down that hoover or makeup brush and look after baby with a messy bun that hasn't been washed for days. It can all wait.

Beware the poonami
It can happen at any time and any place. It will go everywhere, even on you! Don't forget to pack a couple of spare outfits for baby and nappy bags to put dirty clothes in.

Mummy's lie
It's the truth and it's ok. This can be on anything. Every mum gets asked "So does your baby let you sleep?" It's annoying. But I say no all the time. My son sleeps through the night and has done since one and half months. Do I tell other mummy's this? Until now, no I haven't. Because I'm very lucky to have the luxury of nine hours uninterrupted sleep every night. Also it would make other mums who are up all night, feel like shit and question themselves and their babies. 

No one knows what they are doing
Absolutely no one. Every new mum is in the same boat and every baby is different. You will question everything! That's fine, that's how it should be because that's how we learn. Believe it or not our baby's will guide us and they are the ones who are teaching us in knowing what they want. Just remember, you are doing an amazing job.


  




Is parenthood different to how you imagined?

Of course. When I was a little girl I was given a baby newborn doll for my birthday and that was when my desire of becoming a mummy began. Everywhere you look, parenting is made to look easy and fun all the time. I truly had no idea of what I was getting myself into, I thought it would be a walk in the park. How wrong was I? 

Parenting is the hardest job in the world and you're constantly learning. No one talks about the nitty gritty part of parenting and I wish people did. I've had more down days then up since Zach was born. The first month I felt like a feeding station, every half hour of every day I breastfed and I thought it was normal, because that's what babies do. Zach had at least ten pooey nappies a day and I thought that's what babies do also. I hardly slept or showered. All this made me appreciate my mum a hell of a lot more then I have done and respect mothers before me. It isn't easy.

At 24 days old Zach was diagnosed with cystic fibrosis and I thought my world had ended. Not only was I just getting the knack of looking after a newborn, then this was dumped in my lap and it made my job as a new mummy a little be harder as I had to learn everything about CF and how much medication he needs every day. However, it explained why he was constantly pooing and feeding. Now, things are a lot better and I feel like I can take on the world.

Yes, parenting is hard and can be very challenging at times and I wouldn't change a bit of the experience I've had so far. I will leave you all with this; It doesn't get easy, you just get better. 

Love Jenni x

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My Breastfeeding Journey | World Breastfeeding Week.

Friday, 4 August 2017
  
my breastfeeding journey

From the 1st-7th August it is World Breastfeeding Week, and 2017 is actually the 25th year of celebrating the wonder that is breastfeeding! It still blows my mind that my body alone can produce all that my baby needs to grow and develop. Breastmilk boosts your baby's immune system, helping your baby fight viral, bacterial and parasitic infections. Once you get over the Pamela Anderson-esque boobs that decide to leak everywhere at 3 in the morning, it's actually amazing!

I have absolutely nothing against people who formula feed and I do in no way think that I am any better than them, but i'm also not going to shy away and act like i'm not fucking proud of myself for sticking with it for the past 11 weeks. I thought as a way to help celebrate I would share my breastfeeding experience, along with some other mamas!

My Breastfeeding Journey


After Teddy's long and not-so straightforward birth (that you can read about my labour and delivery story here) lasting 55 hours and ending up in theatre with a forceps delivery, I was excited to get things going and try breastfeeding him. Once I had been stitched up (yummy..) and wheeled through to recovery, the midwife helped me to try and get him to latch on, almost an hour later and we were still there... I tried every position, switching boobs..he just wasn't having it at all. He was so tired and just wanted to sleep. That went on for around 24 hours!

  

Our first night in hospital was spent with a midwife coming in every three hours to try and get him to feed, he just point blank refused. It ended up where I had to hand express and the midwife had to syringe the colostrum up and then syringe it into Teddy's mouth. I was so upset and disappointed that it wasn't going as straight forward as everyone had made out it could be..'oh my baby latched straight away.' Well that isn't always the case, however I was determined not to give up and 24 hours later he suddenly latched on like he had been doing it all along, and he's been there ever since....or at least that is what it feels like! He is such a milk monster and a little chunk.

The first two weeks were probably the hardest two weeks of my life! I know people warn you about the cluster feeding, but my god, he was literally attached to my boob all day and all night. He would feed all night, only falling asleep at around 4/5am. I remember the feeling of complete dread when it came to bedtime and I felt physically sick at the idea of feeding him. I was so worried that people would judge me for that but I am so lucky to have an amazingly supportive partner, family and mummy club who reminded me everyday that it was completely normal and it would get better. I can promise you now that it does! When you are in the midst of a night feed, crying over your baby with your milk crusted pj's on, it won't feel like it will ever get better. 11 weeks on and it's all a distant memory that a small part of me misses.

  

I selfishly love that I am the only person who can provide for him when he's hungry, or if he is really upset and the only thing that will soothe him is mummy's milk. I love our little chats in the middle of the night when nobody else is awake and we have a sleepy snuggle. I love the way he snorts for my boob when it's no longer within his reach because he fell asleep. I love his milk drunk face, when he can't open his eyes properly and he does a cheeky little grin. As hard as it is, and it is fucking hard, I wouldn't change it for the world.

I have asked some other mums to share their experiences, good & bad, as a way to show that not everyone's breastfeeding journey is the same, but that doesn't make it any less special!

Mummy Stories

"I didn’t stop to think that maybe I couldn’t breastfeed or that I wouldn’t enjoy breastfeeding. I didn’t consider the enormity of being the only one to provide food and nourishment, or the pressure that comes with that privelidge. I didn’t think about the possibility of low supply or no supply at all. Once again I was suckered in by false advertising. Damn you peaceful-looking breastfeeding women on the billboards and TV ads. I admit it. Prior to becoming a mother I was ridiculously naive. I’d throw statements around with confidence on a subject I didn’t even really understand. Even now, two weeks into exclusively breastfeeding, I have a lot to learn and couldn’t have gotten this far without the reassurance of my online mama friends and wife. I thought breastfeeding was just about whipping a boob out for a hungry babe every few hours and that it would be as easy as it was cheap and convenient."-- Terri @ Ohh Hey Mamma (love you & Benjamin Button xx!)

"Approximately five minutes after my little girl, Poppy, was born she started rooting around, so I attempted to breastfeed for the first time. Trying so hard to remember everything I had learnt during NCT classes first time around I lined up her nose with my nipple, waited for her to open her mouth and pushed her on. It took a few tries and then Poppy started to feed...and didn't stop all night. For the first few nights she literally didn't stop for the whole night, as exhausting as it was I think it was a blessing in disguise. At a birth weight of 8lbs 13ozs she wasn't exactly small, so when my milk came in only two days after giving birth it meant she was able to really fill herself up compared to just having colostrum."-- Helen @ Treasure Every Moment 

"The first thing I have to stress is the importance of SUPPORT! You have to have the support around you if you are planning on breastfeeding. I was so lucky to have both my mum and my other half support my decision to breastfeed. The night feeds were the worst for me in the first two weeks, because I was so tired and still recovering from my C section the latching pain seemed worse at night. I think its because everything seems worse to me when I’m tired. Either way I struggled with the night feeds to begin with. Now 14 weeks down the line I absolutely love the night feeds it feels like my special ‘in our own little bubble’ time."-- Kassy from Mummas Mayhem.

"I loved breastfeeding my three boys, but it’s not as easy as some might have you believe. For me, it hurt to begin with, and was very much a case of trial and error. I smothered myself in lanolin cream in the early days in some vague attempt to remain comfortable, and certain positions suited better than the often mentioned ‘cradle hold’. Each of my babies fed differently: one was determined to feed no matter which position he was in and latched on really well; one was massively distracted and the slightest noise would make him twist around, sometimes still attached, sometimes flinging himself off with a spray of milk following him; one nuzzled in so close he virtually smothered himself with my breast and I had to hold it out of his way with my thumb. All of them fed though and, surely, that’s what is most important."-- Jo @ Cup Of Toast.

"I was lucky. Dougie needed absolutely no instruction, and within minutes of being born, he was feeding away. I remember his first night, we stayed in hospital and no-one told me what I was supposed to be doing, I didn’t know if I was feeding him properly, I didn’t know how often I was meant to feed him, I kind of just trusted my instinct and tried to feed him every time he cried. At the beginning it was incredibly painful, and considering how much my body hurt after giving birth, it was a struggle."-- Helen @ The Hels Project.

"I lost count of the times I had to ask a midwife to help me get her to latch and most of them ended up just offering me bottles of formula. Every time she managed to latch she would feed for hours on end and there were many a time where I felt like giving up. I hated my body for not doing what it was supposed to do, I hated myself for coping badly and I was worrying Eloise wasn't getting enough milk. I remember one night in particular where she had been feeding all day every days for weeks and I was exhausted and just thought "f**k this" and went to get the carton of formula I bought "just in case". These days became frequent. I was a single, teenage mum with this beautiful, tiny human who depended entirely on me. It was f**king hard. I wouldn't change it for anything though."-- Gee @ Gee Gardener.

"I’m a mum of two, one 4 years old and one nearly 7 months old. My two breastfeeding experiences couldn’t be any different. First time round it all went horribly wrong. I wanted to do it because it is best for baby and I know all the benefits. I wanted to be a good parent. I was devastated that it didn’t go well but had to accept that it just wasn’t working. Mastitis, incredibly sore, bleeding nipples, petrified of feeding in public and tears every feeding time (from me) put a stop to it.  
In my post pregnancy haze, post emergency cesarean and post breastfeeding nightmare I felt like a failure, I couldn’t get anything right. Time went on and my little baby girl is growing up a beautiful healthy little girl. I now see that motherhood is filled with trials and experiences, highs and lows and gaining perspective on these early days takes time and a clear head."-- Helen @ Talking Mums.

"For me I couldn't wait to breastfeed my daughter. Our experience started off great with her latching right after I came out of the operating theatre. We established feeding well and I felt really confident and relaxed around it. What I didn't bank on was that my daughter has FPIES, a rare allergy syndrome that meant she began to react to my breastmilk at 10 days old. This was a trying time and for her own health she had to switch to a hydrolysed amino acid formula at 6 weeks old. I was sad our journey ended so soon but so proud I'd managed to feed her myself in the first place! "-- Katy @ Katy Kicker.

"After having Rosie and not being able to breastfeed, I was determined to feed Miyah. I did all the research my head could handle and got all the facts remembered. I started to express some colostrum in case the worst happened and I froze it ready and took it with me to hospital. After I had Miyah, and taking my time to take in I had actually just given birth we cuddled up and she latched straight away. Her latch was perfect and I cried. I was so happy and from there we had it great. She fed like crazy but I didn’t care. A couple weeks after coming home, the first starting pain didn’t exactly go away and I was dreading feeding. I went to the doctors and discovered I had mastitis. I was scared to say the least; I did not want to give up at all so I fed through and took my pills. Unfortunately at 3 months Miyah started teething. This was agony and there was nothing I could do to make it stop. I started getting very sore and I decided it was time that I started to think about bottle feeding her. I made the awful decision at 5 months old and we are now full time bottle feeding as she has completely forgotten how to latch to me. Although I am extremely sad that my time finished before I would have liked I am so proud of how far I have come."-- Becca @ My Girls & Me.

"With my son I felt pressured into breastfeeding by health professionals but it soon became apparent that it just wasn’t for me, I preserved for a couple of weeks until I switched to formula and I never looked back, I felt like a huge weight had been lifted. I didn’t enjoy breastfeeding or feel any extra connection with my son nor was I confident enough to feed in public. I did not rule breastfeeding my daughter out and I knew I wanted to try to do the first couple of days so she got the ‘good stuff’ she was a very fidgety baby and didn’t feed well so I made the decision to switch again. I don’t feel guilty for stopping or wish I could of continued, I totally admire breastfeeding mamas but its just not for me. I am expecting my third baby in November and again I will attempt breastfeeding until I feel it isn’t working for us anymore."-- Amy @ Mama Mighalls.

I'd love to hear your breastfeeding stories and experiences. Did you find it hard to begin with or did it just come naturally?